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I owe such an apology to my friend. It's not the first time that I had upset her but this was different. It was her birthday. The most special day for me. It's most painful when u make someone believe how important they are and then shatter everything in a moment. Even before the day started it was already ruined. Bitter words exchanged, daggers down deep, all limits were crossed. For the first time in life I felt the intensity of love in the word 'hate'. But I wish such words could have better meanings when used in contexts and meaningful relationships. And before I realized and could stop the words reaching her it was finished. At that moment I wished to have the speed of light racing the speed of sound. Anyhow, it was too late and had turned sour now. Series of apologies, nicest of gestures cannot heal what time can. So I tried patience and prayers. The belief in the strength of the relationship was my only hope. The days became the longest. And then one fine day it happened when she decided to move on. When u look at a closed door for a long time hoping it to open one day, you actually get numb when it does. I stood there not knowing what to do next. I have never experienced the presence of various emotions in myself. Friendships are strange relationships. When both you and friend are wounded you are so busy healing your friend's wound that you don't realize your own pain. And when that Is healed you realize you are human too. And then the self healing initiates. There are some people In this world who are worth all the pain and strife you experience and if you are lucky enough to have one...don't ever lose them.